if you dont believe in yourself, who will?

I like you, you like him.
The happiness he gave you burns my insides.
I can only blame my self, for i took to long to act on my emotions.
If i act now i may loose you as a friend, with is something i cherish deeply.
With the question ‘what do i do?’ circling my head, forcing me to the brink of insanity, i find my self finding things to do to preoccupy my mind so i dont think of you, or dream of you.
No this is not a cry for help or attention, it is to notify those of conern that i am for once lost in my life.
Where do i turn with no one to turn to?

At the end of the day the demons inside me and for me to beat, which is why a gently casted smile will always be on my face just so know one will ever feel the need to attempt to ‘help’ me.